Despite everything, I am still alive. If anyone out there cares that is. :) I decamped from the internets for the most part by either deleting accounts or changing accounts to avoid a mess I didn't, and still don't, really want to be involved with... in the long run, no matter what I believe, I may never know the truth of the matter. I honestly don't know what to believe at this juncture and so am re-starting my internet life anew. I'm hoping it'll be better this time around.